Tiada cuti bagimu Ayah!

Tugas seorang ayah tak pernah kenal erti cuti walaupon sememangnya dia tengah bercuti. Aku dah start bercuti sampai tahun depan. Last minute baru perasan annual leave hanya 50% boleh carry forward ke next year. So, minggu last Dec ni mmg kena amik cuti whole week. Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah urusan hari ni di Sri Ayeesha Islamic School. Tomorrow's task - Iman's registration day at Tadika Khalifah Bestari. Rasa mcm anak dah masuk SBP plak! Siap ada waiting list utk enrol 5-years-old Iman ke tadika. And this tadika has 10 classes for 5 years old kids ALONE, with 20 kids in each class. Semoga terus melakar kejayaan wahai puteriku, Wan Iman Syuhada.

To my dear Mum

Today is a very special day to me. Not just because it's the anniversary to my engagement to my lovely wife, Hani but it is also my dearest mum's birthday!

Happy Birthday to my dear mum, Zainum Binti Husain. Semoga Allah sentiasa melindungi mu dan mengurniakan umur yg penuh keberkatan, Insha Allah. Thanks for always being there for me. Love you!

Seminar Transformasi Pendidikan Islam

Cabaran sebenar ibubapa dlm proses mendidik anak2 ialah searching for the right blend antara Syariatullah dan Sunnatullah, agar kedua2nya bergerak seiringan sebagai satu sinergi. Ibubapa adalah QC kpd anak2 mereka supaya produk yg dihasilkan menetapi spesifikasi yg telah diendorsekan oleh Allah SWT. Alhamdulillah, banyak maklumat berguna yang aku & Hani dapat daripada seminar Transformasi Pendidikan Islam semalam. Pengisian yang amat berguna dan releven utk diketahui oleh semua ibu bapa sebagai panduan membimbing anak masing2 terutamanya dalam sistem pendidikan semasa yang serba mencabar. Jazakallah kepada Ust Hasrizal, Tuan Fazrol dan Ustaz Hasni dari SM Al-Amin. Semoga Allah membalas jasa kalian untuk perkongsian ilmu yg sungguh bermanfaat.

One thing that I've really learnt throughout this seminar is, Do NOT compromise your children education. Walaupon terpaksa membayar harga yang tinggi untuk pendidikan anak2 terutamanya yang berbentuk Islamic, nilainya adalah priceless. Sekularisme dalam sistem pendidikan yg sedia ada telah merencatkan generasi kita. Wallahu A'lam.

Jangan lah kita hanya melahirkan dan membentuk khalifah yg baik tapi hamba Allah yang gagal, mahu pon hamba Allah yang baik tapi khalifah yg gagal. Renung2kan lah...

Ages!

Just as the title implies, I can't believe I haven't been updating here in such a long time. My apologies to all my friends out there who took the time to pop back from time to time to see if anything new has appeared in here. Some even tweeted and sent FB msg typing, "Weh, bila ko nk updet blog daa?". Haha. Thanks guys. It brings a smile to my face knowing that some of you guys DO find my random babbling in here worth reading! Whether the read is substancial or not is another issue though.

The truth is, after taking up this new job since March things was a bit hectic considering another 15km extra to kill; travelling to work back and forth plus a much bigger responsibility on my shoulder. And enough with that, when I get back from work, I find that it's too big a sacrifice to open my laptop and blog when I have this little, limited time to spend with my wife and kids.

Well, maybe it's all about time management which I haven't mastered yet. Do pray for me that I'll get along fine so that I can blog more often. There's loads of happenings and updates that I'd like to put a remark on in here as our life has entered it's next phase. Just a piece of advice to brighten up your day, let's give value to the life of those people around you! You will find that your life will be more meaningful as your appreciation to Allah increase day by day. Take care people!

Putting thoughts to my fingertips

Yesterday our MD's father passed away. All management staffs of Commercial Division were there during the solat jenazah at Masjid Al-Ansar AU2 Keramat. I had the chance of meeting Ust. Abdullah Yassin who used to give tazkirah at Masjid Al-Azim Pandan Indah where my late father-in-law used to serve.

"He was a nice man. Send my regards to your wife and your family". His face was a bit gloomy as he murmurred those short but meaningful words. I was left in a state of poignant upon hearing those remarks. The thoughts of the man with the name Haji Ahmad Bin Ismail was 'slide-showing' in my head.

I have decided to write from my heart today. Something that I was unable to do for quite sometime due to time contraint and other commitments.

18th June each year has always marked an emotional griever to our family. And that same date this year had made us all realized that it has been 4 years since my late father-in-law, Hj Ahmad Bin Ismail left us. There is this melancholy deep inside within me everytime I speak or even put my thoughts on him.

There's this one day when I was driving back from work, making my way through the traffic, when there was this motivation slot on air advising tips on how to confront the loss of someone you love and learning to let go. I tried to put myself together and gave the motivator a chance, even though I knew that in many ways, the exercise would prove to be a difficult and emotional one.

I was wrong. It wasn’t difficult. But I was also right, as it proved to be an extremely emotional endeavor. Remembering the good thoughts and happy memories with him had somehow half outlandishly brought smiles to my face. To make sure that my wife Honey, mother-in-law and the rest of the family felt the same way is another big question though.

I've also learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings. May Allah bestow a great blesssing and His mercy upon this great man, Amin.

Doa Solat Dhuha

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya waktu Dhuha itu DhuhaMu
Kecantikannya adalah kecantikanMu,
Keindahan itu keindahanMu,
Kekuatan itu kekuatanMu,
kekuasaan itu kekuasaanMu
Perlindungan itu perlindunganMu.

Ya Allah, jika rezekiku masih di langit, turunkanlah,
Jika di dalam bumi, keluarkanlah,
Jika sukar, permudahkanlah,
Jika haram, sucikanlah,
Jika jauh, dekatkanlah.

Berkat waktu dhuhaMu, kecantikanMu. keindahanMu,
KekuatanMu, kekuasaanMu,
limpahkan kepadaku segala yang Engkau telah limpahkan
kepada hamba-hambaMu yang soleh.

Quote of the day

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising everytime we fall

Yes, attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference!

That's enough kids, table manners!

Bahana Piala FA!

Semalam lepas balik dari An-Nur, aku mencuri masa untuk memeriksa markah kertas ujian pertengahan penggal Bahasa Melayu anakanda Danish Haiqal. Termenung aku sejenak, sambil tengok 'tuan punye paper' yang dah terbongkang tidur kat depan TV, menunggu ayah nye balik. Kenapa tiba2 kuat pulak pengaruh loghat Terenganu dalam penulisan Danish ni?

Soalan : Isikan tempat kosong bagi gambar-gambar yang diberikan berikut:-


Jawapan Danish : Jarung


Jawapan Danish : Rambutang


Jawapan Danish : Anak Ayang

Agaknye ni penangan Piala FA ari tu kot? Haha... Pastu ada satu lagi jawapan Danish yang kena pangkah besar2 kat cikgu dia. Soalan simpulan bahasa.

Soalan : Tuliskan simpulan bahasa yang betul untuk gambar-gambar yang diberikan seperti dibawah.


Jawapan Danish : Kaki Kerusi!

I'm no Jerry Maguire!

I guess after reading that title there, you'll be taking a deep breath and a sigh full with concentrated CO2. I'm no Jerry Maguire! At least, now I get the feeling during the scene in the movie Jerry Maguire, the eponymous character played to perfection by Tom Cruise when he said and almost beg, "Help me, help you"!

How do we help someone who doesn't want to help himself or herself? We don't! I guess I can say that. But to react that way is like giving up on that person. At some point in your life, things will come back at you and somehow you need to settle the issue rather than ignoring it.

The truth is, at this point of time, I have no answer to that. Dear Allah, please give me the courage to withstand this test! Amin.

Pencen

Dah kena pencen kot dari dunia blogging ni. Tengok kepada entry yang adakalanya pasang surut, dengan komitmen masa utk kerja dan keluarga, 'melomahkan' lagi smangat yang dulunya berkobar-kobar utk update dalam blog ni. Boleh dapat elaun pencen tak? Hmphhh..

Nature kerja yang baru menuntut pengorbanan yang lebih dari segi masa especially to drive every morning taking the SKVE route, and head to Shah Alam. Dah dekat Maghrib baru sampai rumah. Less quality time with the kids when it comes to weekdays.

Kadang2 pagi sabtu, Danish yang baru nak bangun tido n tengah mamai boleh tanya, "Ayah kerja jugak ke hari ni?". And how he would smile when I replied, "Tak, ari ni sabtu. Ayah cuti". Ouchhh...

Bila nak exercise nih?!

Pohon Hidup

Alhamdulillah, kita kembali semula ke sharemotivasi- sentuhan Qalbu.

Ingin sekali saya berkongsi pengalaman untuk kebaikan kita bersama. Mudah-mudahan, kita dapat memiliki sesuatu dalam artikel kali ini.

Sebelum kita melangkah lebih jauh, marilah sama-sama kita istiqhfar kepada Allah swt.

Sharemotivasi- Sentuhan Qalbu kali ini ingin mengupas sesuatu yang ada dalam diri kita. Bukan sedikit, tetapi besar ertinya kedalam hidup kita sebagai seorang hamba Allah.

Mencari dan terus mencari, ungkapan yang selalu kita dengari. Tetapi sejauh mana kebenaran yang kita cari itu. Adakah ia tersasar? Ataupun terpesong dari simpangnya..
Sama-sama kita ikuti artikel ini.

Kehidupan yang selama ini kita cari selalu terletak pada satu dasar dimana diatasnya pudar, dibawahnya kepincangan. Kebahagian yang dicari manusia menerusi material, kemegahan laksana pohon-pohon muda yang tumbuh sesaat, berbuah sesaat, berbunga sesaat lalu apabila ditiupkan angin badai yang menimpa, pohon-pohon muda itu hilang kekuatan akarnya, menjadi rapuh umpama biskut yang dipijak-pijak, lalu ia menjadi debu-debu yang halus bertebaran jauh ke langit.

Kemudian, kita menangis, mencari tisu untuk merawat duka, tapi akhirnya, berdarah sentiasa mengalir, umpama hilang faktor clotting dalam darah.. Terus mengalir dari jiwa yang pening hingga meresap ke dalam botol akal fikiran.

Lalu kita cepat-cepat membuat keputusan, memikirkan sejenak mengenai masa hadapan hingga tergambar di bayangan minda, rumah idaman, kereta besar, pangkat yang tinggi yang akhirnya kita merasakan ia adalah kebahagiaan yang perlu kita kecapi.

Sesaat kita mendapat gelaran pangkat yang tinggi, hati kita selalu merasakan ia masih tidak mencukupi. Namun, diri kita tidak pernah kenal erti cukup dalam dunia maya ini. Kita terus mengejar dan mengejar sehingga berjaya mendapat pangkat yang lebih tinggi. Tiba-tiba badai musibah mengusik kita, datang tanpa diundang dalam rumah hati kita. Kita menjadi kaku dan layu, umpama cell-cell pohon dalam hati menjadi rapuh lalu terurai menjadi pohon tua yang menunggu masa menyembah bumi..
Inilah gambaran pohon hati yang sudah rosak.. Akarnya tidak disirami dan dibajai, sesaat berbuah tetapi hancur. Itulah gambaran kebahagian sesaat.

Sejenak kita renungkan dalam diri kita. Pejamkan mata kita. Lihatlah pada diri masing-masing. Pohon hati apakah yang telah kita tumbuhkan dalam dunia hati kita?

Bagaimanakah selama ini kita menjalani kehidupan kita? Sudahkan selama ini hidup kita menjadikan kehidupan kita benar-benar mengabdikan diri kepada Allah?
Sudahkan kita ikhlaskan diri kepada Allah? Tepuklah akal kita supaya ia berfikir untuk diri kita.

Ketika kita pergi ke sekolah mahupun universiti, adakah kita telah mendidik pohon hati kita bahawa ijazah yang bakal dimiliki itu bukan untuk kita menjulang gelaran tetapi sesungguhnya demi pengabdian kita kepada Allah swt?

Cubalah kita bertanya secara jujur pada diri kita sendiri. Mari kita lihat:
Kemana selama ini, umur kita telah habiskan? Kemana selama ini, kehidupan kita selama ini berikan?

Lihatlah diri kita ketika musibah itu datang. Berapa sering kita keluh kesal ? Malah, kita menyalahkan pula Allah kerana menurunkan dugaan sedemikian rupa. Kita tak dapat menerima takdir Allah. Kita menyesali semua yang ada dalam hidup kita, seolah kita tidak pernah rasa puas dengan segala apa yang kita ada..

Kita tak menyedari sebenarnya hati kita yang sedang jauh dari Allah. Hati kita yang saat itu tak mampu merasakan bahwa Allah itu dekat dengan kehidupan kita.
Bahkan akal keimanan kita dalam kehidupan kita sudah kering dan mati.

Dan kitalah orang muda yang lupa kehidupan ini untuk apa.

Marilah kita ucapkan istiqhfar kepada Allah. Mari kita memohon ampun kepada Allah...
Astaghfirullah.

Para pembaca sekalian yang dirahmati Allah...

Mungkin ketika kehidupan kita kering, kita sedar bahawa kebahagian material dan duniawi itu semua hanya sesaat dan kebahgiaan sebenar-benarnya adalah ketika kita menanam akar kecintaan kita kepada Allah, yang tumbuh masuk ke dasar hati.
yang kemudian yang tumbuh tinggi menjadi pohon kehidupan, yang menghasilkan buah kebahagian yang selamanya kerana, kita merasakan Allah bersama kita, Allah menaungi kehidupan kita, Allah menjaga dirimu setiap saat meskipun ujian datang silih berganti maka, mudahan-mudahan kita semua sama-sama dapat menyedari dan menyakini,
jadikan Allah cita-cita hidup kita yang paling utama, nescaya Allah menjaga kehidupan kita di dunia dan di akhirat.

Daripada riwayat Abu Zar, Rasululullah SAW bersabda:
"Teguhkan bahteramu kerana lautan yang kamu lalui itu terlalu dalam untuk diharungi,
Banyakkanlah bekalan kerana perjalanan kita cukup jauh untuk dijalani,
Ringankanlah belakangmu kerana yang didaki itu terlalu curam,
Ikhlaskanlah segala perbuatanmu kerana yang menilai kita amat Mengetahui dan Maha Melihat apa yang kita lakukan,"

Oleh itu, segala yang kita lahirkan dari hati kita, dari perbuatan kita, lakukankanlah kerana Allah SWT, bukan untuk kemegahan dan keagungan yang kita cari,
tetapi semata-mata kepada Allah. Kerana keagungan kita akan ada bila Allah redha kepada kita.

Jangan kita lupa, bahawa dalam kehidupan kita ini, ada satu pohon hati yang perlu kita bangunkan. Tumbangnya pohon itu, maka ranaplah kehidupan kita. Mudah-mudahan, kita diredhai Allah. Semoga Allah mengampuni kita semua, Amin.

Al-Fatihah

The sad incident and tragedy which occured at an orphanage Rumah Anak Yatim Hidayah-Madrasah Al-Taqwa in Kampung Gahal, Sg Semungkis, Hulu Langat where a landslide happened had brought such grievance over the weeekend. The sad incidents claimed 16 lives. 9 survived. Al-Fatihah.

Alhamdulillah - The journey continues...

Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for the infinite blessings and endless oceans of mercy and favours that you have granted upon me. Syukr, Ya Rabbi.

I've accepted a job in UEM. Thanks to LifeTronic Medical for the experiences and learning opportunities. With this, a new journey continues!

Al-Fatihah

Baru semalam Allah berikan kesempatan utk aku menziarahi beliau yang terlantar sakit. Pagi ni Allah telah menjemput beliau buat selama2nya. Al-Fatihah buat Haji Ahmad Bin Maaruf (bekas kadi Gemencheh, N9). Semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan di kalangan para syuhada & solihin, Amin. Buat Kamal Ahmad & Najihah Ahmad, semoga anda sekeluarga ditabahkan hati menghadapi dugaan Allah ini.

It's A GIRL!

Alhamdulillah, Syaher & Sis Ha has now proudly joined the parenting club with their new bundle of joy, baby Wan Aufa Darwishah.(Dah confirm ke ni nama ni? Pandai2 je ni, hehe). Sis Ha safely gave birth to cute baby Aufa at KBMC at 1.19 pm weighing 3.2kg. Semoga anakanda Wan Aufa menjadi anak yang solehah, insha Allah. X sabar nk balik tgk anak buah CNY nih!

and I'm guilty

Life is all about choices and the fact of living with that choice you made despite whatever circumstances it may lead you to. Question is, when you have made the right choices, (or 'thought' that you have made the right choices, for that matter!), did we ever thank Allah with all our heart for guiding us? For showing us the way? For bestowing his blessings during thick and thin? And when it comes to showing our appreciation to Allah, how do we ever know that we have thanked Him enough?

Deep down inside, there is this sense of guilt inside me. Although this sort of feeling naturally come and go with time but somehow I felt that I need to make it an exception this time around to have a reflect about it. In seconds, it suddenly struck me deep inside that I was so profoundly ashamed of myself. Ashamed of myself for praying to Allah just to fulfill my obligation as a Muslim. Ashamed of myself for praying somewhat half-heartedly at times, mind on other matters. Ashamed of myself for not realizing the sweetness of pure iman. Please forgive me Allah...

School updates

Alhamdulillah, Danish is adapting super-well at school. We are proud to see his knowledge improving so fast and within a week at Darul Fuqaha, we started to see some differences compared to the old Danish. His knowledge pertaining to solat and doa', his attitude has starting to show some good improvement. Every parents heart will sink every morning when they send their kids to school at Darul Fuqaha, seeing their kids preparing to perform the sunat dhuha. Moga Allah sentiasa menurunkan taufik dan inayah ke atas anakandaku, Wan Danish Haiqal, Amin.

He's Doing F.I.N.E.!

Alhamdulillah. Danish survived his first day at school. I applied 3 days off just to make sure that he adapts well to his new environment. Not that I don't trust him of behaving, but just in case. Seeing Danish so confident from the day he stepped in his class, Honey and I was sure that we don't have to wait for him in the class like some other parents did. Although we won't mind waiting for his first day, wanting to see how he mix with his new friends and how he corresponds with a stranger that now is his ustaz or ustazah, but we just don't want it to be a norm for him, knowing we are there. Sooner or later, he'll have to be there on his own, looking after himself. We thanked god that our son made it easy for us. Easy to feel confident that he'll manage to be on his own and easy to walk away from his school feeling at ease, knowing that he'll be fine and that our prayers and love will always be there with him, Insha Allah.

On his second day, making use of my leave, I secretly climbed up the stairs to Danish school's surau during the lunch break to see how is he coping. And I was almost in tears to see him in the front row saf, prepparing the sejadah, waiting for the Zohor prayers. He was surprised and smiled heartily when he saw me approaching. He hugged my hands and whispered softly, "Ayah datang tengok Danish". I just smiled back, as the Bilal said the iqamat. Deep down inside, it was a warm, proud feeling of being a parent.


I'm so proud of you my son! You're the best think that ever happen to Ayah & Ibu. Seeing you settling down so well in the new environment at school lift our heart even more. Semoga menjadi anak yang soleh dan berjaya dunia akhirat, Amin. Thank you Allah.

Danish Haiqal's First Day At School

Gambar sebelum pergi ke sekolah. Semangat betul Danish berpakaian sepersalinan baru dari bawah hingga ke atas. Dari pagi dah sibuk tarik 'beg tarik'nye ke sana sini. "Ayah, Danish cam ayah nak gi keje!". Somehow wearing a kemeja tuck in your pants seems to have the impression of going to work for him. Tengok ayah dia camtu kot. Hehe...

Ismi Wan Danish Haiqal. Ata'allamu fi Sek. Ren. Islam Pintar Tahfiz Darul Fuqaha'. Moga sekolah ini memberikan anakanda ilmu utk annajah fi ddunya wal akhirah. A khalifah in the making, insha allah.

Tuuuu dia, sempat lg intai Ayah & Ibu kat luar masa dalam kelas. Kat ujung yg tengah ngintai same bapak is Danish's new friend, Kifayatullah. Ayah dia ckp, nama tu inspired by nama menantu TGNA. Wallahu a'lam.

Credits to Ustaz Harme, Ustazah Anili & Ustazah Hannis for making Danish's first day at school a walk in the park for him. Barakallahu alaikum.

All the best my son!

Saya roti Baru Dan Susu

Saya roti Baru Dan Susu?

Those were the words that I found written down on Danish's stack of A4 papers, with a cartoon drawings of a cow driving a crane with the word 'susu' written on it! It's an amazing yet challenging thing envisaging that exact words written by a 6 year old and a half! How they try to express things from their point of view. I don't even think Da Vinci can crack this one out!




Right at this very moment, Danish is sleeping. Iman? Still wide awake in the kitchen 'helping ibu' prepparing for tomorrow's breakfast. Tomorrow will be a big day for Danish and for us too. His first day at school. Dah Darjah 1 anak sulong ayah ni.

I remembered 3 years back when Honey and I had to send Danish to a nursery in USJ they day she had to report for duty. It was the first time we ever had to send him in someone else's care. We waited in the car, trying to listen if there were any crying sound from him. And when there wasn't any, Ibu dia was the one who ended up crying!

May Allah give you his hidayah and barakah to survive your days and responsibility as a student and may He protect you always my son. Hasbunallah wa ni'mal wakil, walahaulawala quwwata illa billahi aliyyi adzeem. Good luck my dear, precious son, Wan Danish Haiqal. Doa Ayah dan Ibu akan sentiasa bersama anakanda. Ayah and Ibu love you unconditionally!

Bila la agaknye budak kecik ni nak tido?

Dinasours Alive!

Honey and I thought that it would be a good thing to have one final family outing before the school holiday is finally over. This time, we were thinking of something exciting for Danish, but doubtful for Iman. And I guess we were right! Iman was intolerant and refuse to give her co-operation to please his big brother's ice breaking session with the dinasours. Nak balik baru ok sket. FYI, this dinasour display is at Pusat Sains Negara from 1 Dec 2010 till May end 2011.

Danish reaction on the first dinasour he saw that day. Danish : Ayah, dalam dinasour ni ada ape? Boleh ke kita sembelih dinasour ni? Dinasour ni makan tak roti? Aduyai, anakku sorang ni!

Hi dinasour, awak nama ape? Saya Danish Haiqal. Dah makan blum?

Meh nak urut sket.

Dinasour makan budakkkkk!!!

Iman pada mulanya agak reluctant utk berposing dgn Dinasour ni dan selalu berkepit dgn Opahnya. Maybe sebab bunyi2 dinasour yg bergema dalam PSN tu agak kuat n real.

While Iman was closing her eyes with her two hands, clinging to her granma, Danish was running from one dinasour to another. Cepat ayah, ambik gambar Danish!

Help Danishhhhhh, this buddy here bite my feet, arghhhhhhhh......

Take two! Danish trying his own version of this-buddy-here-bite-my-feet scene! Hehe..

Iman, finally agreed to co-operate.

Ayah, boleh bawak balik tak dinasour ni?

Dinasour dua beradik yang kepenatan!